i sit here crying, by myself. i feel so lonely. so unwanted. i don't wanna be here any more. i don't wanna live. i just want someone to care but no one does. so why should i be here? i see everyone having so much fun while i sit at home alone. all alone. always fucking alone. why doesn't someone want to be with me? not like bf, gf but just be with me. i've never been like this before. i feel like i can't get out. no one will help me. i've been put aside. what do i do.