get me out.

i can't see myself getting out of this. this lifeless, endless pit of nothing. i don't see my life going anywhere. i don't see me getting happy any time soon. i just want to go away and stay away. it will be better for everyone. no one kills to have me in their life. i'm not a nice and happy person all the time. in fact that's never going to happen. i can't pretend to be happy when i'm not. i don't understand what happened. i don't know why i am like this. i never chose for it to be like this. i want out. if i could leave, i would say yes. save everyone from having me around any longer.