glad to see you happy.

i admit, i miss you each day. i don't know how you find it so easy. you used to be so sweet. i know you hurt me more than ever but i still miss you. i hope you realise how good i was for you. you moved on so fast. i'm so stupid, i should have let go a long long time ago. i would've saved myself the pain and all the anger. the friends i've lost we're never true. the ones i've gained are my only true friends. i hope you notice how much i am better off without you. i guess you're the guy i can just always go back to because of how much i loved you. i think you used to love me but no longer do, and that hurts. i don't really know how to deal with things because you were always there and now, all of a sudden, out of the blue, you're just, gone. moving on has never been so hard. never hurt the ones you love i'll live by that. i wish you loved me. we were so messed up.

i need answers.

you were the one that was meant to stay. you were meant to be mine. we were meant to be together like you said. maybe you should make the effort to talk to me instead of blaming me. i get all choked up and nervous around you and would say something stupid. it's never me and you alone and when it is it's so good. i can't stop smiling but i guess we'll never get that time anymore? just tell me to move on, please. i don't wanna wait for something that may not happen.

am i doing something wrong?

every fucking time. just as i get to be so happy, it all falls apart. it's like after you, i'm not meant to be happy. karma i guess. you always get what you want. just one time, just one, that's all i'm asking for. to let me be happy. you're holding something back, i don't know what it is. no one will tell me. so help me through this if you wanna be with me like you said you did because i feel completely stupid waiting around right now.

quit. yes? no?

i feel horrible. i haven't felt like this in a while and you just keep bringing it back. it's like you don't know what you want. i can't handle this. being ignored. having problems and you wont even talk to me about them. i feel used, unwanted and once again, not good enough. i love how you can make me feel this so easily. hope you feel good about yourself.

fuck this.

i'm so lost. you're back to this with me and i don't know why :( you aren't talking to me and don't wanna see me. i heard because it's awkward but why? how? you never talk to me anyway. wtf happened. nothing ever works out for me now. better start getting used to it.

i haven't been this happy in so long! you make me smile even by the littlest of things. if you look at me, i'll smile. if you send me a pointless text, i'll smile. when i see you, even for the shortest moment, i'll smile. you kissed me today, i'm still smiling. i've missed this feeling so much. i don't want it to go away. so please don't leave. you're starting to leave a mark.

happiness at last.

last night you made me so happy. you told me you want to be with me. my face lit up, my smile wouldn't go away. it felt like i was dreaming. thank you!